Feeling It

What have I done? I knew it was wrong from the start!

 Never date a rich/attached/married man.

 I love being in love - but expectations, 

make it impossible to be happy or satisfied.

Tradition just seemed so romantic,

I guess it's a used up ideal

for the old fashion, not modern.

No man knows what to do with me

I blame myself.

To play with me, is eternal

I'm not 'on the clock' or on the 'payroll'.

You know - It's not freaky enough, 

to just be beautiful.

I've never felt beautiful.

I always felt naive and blind.

Oh woww..I'm losing my mind.

I'm shutting down - It's such a strange feeling

going numb..in front of everyone.